Eleventh Unused Utility Belt | Video, Spam

[hellofist]

Um. I'm awake, now.

[Have a wave and half a smile, Barge.]

Didn't mean... to worry anyone. Sorry. I'm okay, though. I know... things have changed. Birthday passed. Was going to be... first one. Never knew it, growing up. Guess weapons... weren't allowed them. Merlin said, can have party. Don't know how, though. Could use tips.

Want to see everyone. Can meet somewhere, or you... come to Merlin's room. Staying here now, moved stuff already. It's... safer, this way. For my heart.

[That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context though, does it? She sighs and her smile fades, dissolves into a look that's somewhere between uncomfortable and just sad.]

There's a man here, David Cain. My father.

[She's truthful almost all of the time anyway, but this is when it becomes clear she's affected by this flood.]

Don't kill him. He's not... worth your time. Deserves a chance. Bad father, bad man, deserves to die, maybe should die, but... deserves his chance, too. Just leave him alone. Don't want people... getting hurt. Love you all too much.

That's... guess that's all.


Private to Bruce Wayne
Don't anymore, okay? Once is enough.

I love you.



Private to David Cain
Promise still stands. You kill anyone, I kill you.

... Hope this place... works, for you.



Spam for Dean and Barbara, separately
[Some people deserve to see her in person without waiting so she goes to them first, knocks and knocks and knocks on their doors until they open up, let her in. Once they do, they'll have an armful of Cass because there's no stopping her once she sees those faces again.]

Comments

private; audio

[hellofist]

You aren't monster. I'm not, either. We're just people. You did... what you had to. Maybe it's not right, but your choice. Can't say, Joker didn't deserve it. He did. But now, stop. For all of us, stop. We love you, don't like... seeing you hurting, sad.

It's okay, loving us too. We want you to, if we suffer, it's less... when you love us. But don't try for me. Love me because you love me, not... because I need it. Means more, if you mean it.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I am. I know one when I see it, and I see it in the mirror every day. I don't know if I can stop, or if I can change. Sometimes there's no choice, I just don't know when those times will be, but I can't risk a rising body count because of some false hope. I don't believe in hope any more. I want to, but I don't.

I don't mind that it kills me. I don't really care that it did until I met all of you. Nobody at home spent time around me, so I didn't realise I was hurting more than just myself. I want to stop because I don't want to hurt the people I love, but that's something I always do regardless of the situation. It's who I am.

I do love you. I thought you judged me for not being him when I first met you, but I realise now that you don't. You just wanted me to accept that you cared. I'm sorry it took me so long to work that out. I'm so sorry.

private; audio

[hellofist]

I'll hope for you. Good at it.

Don't be sorry. You see now, can... make up for it. Lots of hugs. Told you, I'll always... forgive you. Always.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I don't think there's anything I can do that will ever make up for it.

private; audio

[hellofist]

Want to try?

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I'm just going to make a mess of it if I do.

private; audio

[hellofist]

Maybe. You have family, to help clean.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

There shouldn't be a mess in the first place. I'm aware that's a stupid standard to hold myself to but people suffer if I don't live up to it.

private; audio

[hellofist]

Shouldn't be, but is. You can... hold any standard, Bruce. Won't change how we feel.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I think it will. Maybe not you, but others.

private; audio

[hellofist]

Others not worth time, then. Spent... lots of time, trying to force us. It only hurt.

The people who love you, Bruce? They'll wait for you. Til you're ready.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I don't know if I ever will be.

I hate disappointing you like this.

private; audio

[hellofist]

You aren't. Never disappointed. Wish you could see... how close you are. Cain was setback, but Bruce... you're almost there.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I'm not close. I can't leave before Jason and Selina do.

private; audio

[hellofist]

Stay, then. Be warden.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I don't want to, even if I can think of something I want to make a deal for. I just don't know if I can believe in this system.

private; audio

[hellofist]

What do you want?

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

Are you referring to the deal?

private; audio

[hellofist]

Just... for your life. For future.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

There's no future. Not without my family.

private; audio

[hellofist]

So have future with family.

[That's kind of obvious, isn't it?]

Think you and Selina... perfect together, anyway.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

They're from different worlds. I can't exactly take them home.

[Paaaaaaause.] Have you been talking to Selina about me? I think that's flattering but awkward. I haven't told her - or anyone - I'm in love with her.

[WHOOPS.]

private; audio

[hellofist]

Who says? Kon's going... with Steph. Take them... with you.

[You should be able to hear the grin in her voice by now, Bruce.] Sure. Talk to her... about lots of things.

Not big secret, though. To me, at least.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

How?

[Then he groans.] Am I that obvious?

Re: private; audio

[hellofist]

Don't know... exactly how it works. But, I might go... to Arthur and Merlin's world. Instead of... back to Gotham. Or Dean's world, maybe. Will ask for you, though.

[And that actually gets a quiet puff of a laugh from her. She's never laughed for him before, it feels a little funny to do it now, of all times.]

Of course not. Can read you. Only obvious... to me.