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[hellofist]

Um. I'm awake, now.

[Have a wave and half a smile, Barge.]

Didn't mean... to worry anyone. Sorry. I'm okay, though. I know... things have changed. Birthday passed. Was going to be... first one. Never knew it, growing up. Guess weapons... weren't allowed them. Merlin said, can have party. Don't know how, though. Could use tips.

Want to see everyone. Can meet somewhere, or you... come to Merlin's room. Staying here now, moved stuff already. It's... safer, this way. For my heart.

[That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context though, does it? She sighs and her smile fades, dissolves into a look that's somewhere between uncomfortable and just sad.]

There's a man here, David Cain. My father.

[She's truthful almost all of the time anyway, but this is when it becomes clear she's affected by this flood.]

Don't kill him. He's not... worth your time. Deserves a chance. Bad father, bad man, deserves to die, maybe should die, but... deserves his chance, too. Just leave him alone. Don't want people... getting hurt. Love you all too much.

That's... guess that's all.


Private to Bruce Wayne
Don't anymore, okay? Once is enough.

I love you.



Private to David Cain
Promise still stands. You kill anyone, I kill you.

... Hope this place... works, for you.



Spam for Dean and Barbara, separately
[Some people deserve to see her in person without waiting so she goes to them first, knocks and knocks and knocks on their doors until they open up, let her in. Once they do, they'll have an armful of Cass because there's no stopping her once she sees those faces again.]

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[love_slave]

When I was escaping from captivity, I found a man named Stanley Tweedle. He was ugly and not very brave, but he went with me because he didn't know where else to go. He was running from the Divine Order, too.

On the way we found other escaped prisoners, Thodin of the Ostral-B Heretics. He knew Stanley. Even being from the Wife Bank, I'd heard of the Arch-traitor Stanley Tweedle myself, and Thodin was furious with him. But Thodin said he was there as a prisoner on purpose- he was captures so he could escape on the Cluster, and he had a key to operate the Lexx. A bio-key, encoded into his hand that can be passed on to another host if you know you're about to die.

The Lexx was created to destroy whole worlds, the Divine Order was going to use it to wipe out the heretics. We were going to steal the ship and take it away.

But the Divine Order sent the Divine Assassin Kai to stop us. The key ended up with Stanley by accident, and we were the only two left that could take the Lexx. But Kai found his memories aboard the ship. He helped stop his Divine Shadow from taking it back, and the Lexx belonged to us.

It was never a bad ship. Just hungry and powerful. He's very happy when he's told that he was good, and pleased to talk to whoever has the key. He's as big as a comet, so seeing him over a planet looks like there's a giant dragonfly in the sky.

[hellofist]

[Cass listens with rapt attention and by the end of the story, she's hanging on Zev's every word. Reading her as she speaks paints a whole second layer to the tale and Cass feels what Zev does, the way she cares for her friends and the ship, even the hunger and happiness of the Lexx for a moment.]

Wish I could... see it. Sounds amazing. Your world... guess it's good, and bad. Just like... everything else.

[She still doesn't want Zev going back there, of course.]

[love_slave]

Well, of course. I'm part monster, but I'm still a woman. Kai is undead and a Divine Assassin, but still the hero of the story. Stanley was a traitor, but in the end a good friend with a conscience.

And the Lexx was a giant planet destroying bug that only really cared about making his captain happy.

This is why I think all the inmates here aren't bad. If I knew such terrible and wonderful things, why can't the worst of them be terrible and wonderful, too? [Except Jefferson, she's still pretty pissed at him.]

[hellofist]

Me too. Part monster, broken, but still good.

[This is why she likes you so much, Zev. You just get this kind of thing.]

Everyone deserves second chance. That's why... I like it here. Everyone gets chances.

[love_slave]

To be honest, it took a very long time to think of myself as good. For a while I didn't even want to live.

[She's feels a lot better about living when she's away from the other horrible.]

Technically, I don't think I did.

[hellofist]

[This time, when Cass agrees, it's not at all as cheerful.]

Me too. Had... death wish, Batman called it.

[love_slave]

It's really hard when you're worried you won't be able to escape what other people want you to be. It seems like it's the only way out.

[hellofist]

[Cass needs a minute, after hearing that. Zev has just put to words exactly the reason she ran away from her father and it's kind of strange, having someone else say exactly what you feel.]

Now, though. Want to live?

[love_slave]

[She's quiet for a while.]

Sometimes I don't know.

Sometimes memories hurt, too.

[hellofist]

If they're... that bad, couldn't someone... take them away?

[It's not really something Cass likes the idea of at all, but suggesting it is better than keeping her mouth shut. It'd be better than losing Zev.]

[love_slave]

I don't suppose I would be the same person without them. And I have 20 years of them.

[hellofist]

I like... who you are, now. Better to leave them.

[love_slave]

Some of us are better with our scars, I think.

[hellofist]

Think you're perfect... just how you are, Zev.

[love_slave]

I think you are, too. You say what you mean, and you can understand people better than they can understand themselves. [She can see how that body reading thing can give someone amazing empathy.]