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[hellofist]

Um. I'm awake, now.

[Have a wave and half a smile, Barge.]

Didn't mean... to worry anyone. Sorry. I'm okay, though. I know... things have changed. Birthday passed. Was going to be... first one. Never knew it, growing up. Guess weapons... weren't allowed them. Merlin said, can have party. Don't know how, though. Could use tips.

Want to see everyone. Can meet somewhere, or you... come to Merlin's room. Staying here now, moved stuff already. It's... safer, this way. For my heart.

[That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context though, does it? She sighs and her smile fades, dissolves into a look that's somewhere between uncomfortable and just sad.]

There's a man here, David Cain. My father.

[She's truthful almost all of the time anyway, but this is when it becomes clear she's affected by this flood.]

Don't kill him. He's not... worth your time. Deserves a chance. Bad father, bad man, deserves to die, maybe should die, but... deserves his chance, too. Just leave him alone. Don't want people... getting hurt. Love you all too much.

That's... guess that's all.


Private to Bruce Wayne
Don't anymore, okay? Once is enough.

I love you.



Private to David Cain
Promise still stands. You kill anyone, I kill you.

... Hope this place... works, for you.



Spam for Dean and Barbara, separately
[Some people deserve to see her in person without waiting so she goes to them first, knocks and knocks and knocks on their doors until they open up, let her in. Once they do, they'll have an armful of Cass because there's no stopping her once she sees those faces again.]

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[ichoosefight]

[ Steph looks up, searching Cass' eyes for some sign of where things went wrong. ]

I never meant to- I didn't choose anything, Cass, and I definitely didn't choose my future when I left, if anything I chose to give up my future. I don't know what's happened to us but I hate it and now I'm going to cry and maybe I should just go.

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[hellofist]

What happened was, you've had years. Years, to change from... Spoiler, to Batgirl. To grow up, move past me. I'm still me. Haven't changed. You want... something I'm not.

[And she says she should go, but it feels more like Steph running away. Cass frowns, but just nods. If Steph wants to run, leave things like this, it's her choice.]

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[ichoosefight]

I want my best friend. [ She rubs at her eyes, contemplates pushing the chair back and getting to her feet. If she leaves now, it might be too late to fix this. ] I don't know what to do, Cass. The person I used to be made so many mistakes. I got people killed, hundreds of people. I can't go back to who I was before.

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[hellofist]

Not asking you to. Just asking, don't make me... come forward so fast. Let me catch up... on own time. In own way.

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[ichoosefight]

I will, I promise I will. I never meant to push you, Cass. I'm so sorry.

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[hellofist]

[With a sigh, Cass leans in to hug Steph again.]

Stop apologizing. Can't stay mad... when it's you.

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[ichoosefight]

No promises there. [ Steph gives her a big squeeze, clinging almost desperately. She was so scared she was going to lose Cass just now. ]

I really will do better. But you have to tell me when I'm doing something wrong, okay?

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[hellofist]

[For better or worse, Cass will never be able to cut this connection. She loves Steph too much, she means too much to ever let her go. She strokes Steph's hair in an attempt to calm her down.]

Will. And promise... you'll be friendly, with Merlin? Know it might be... hard, but try? He's important, just like you.

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[ichoosefight]

Of course, I promise. We're not close or anything but we get along. [ She can't help but smile at the way Cass describes him. Important. Like her. ]

I'm glad you have someone here.

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[hellofist]

We're not, um... he didn't remember me. So. Not boyfriend, just... Merlin.

But... I'm glad too.

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[ichoosefight]

I wasn't sure. I talked to him a little when he got back but it seemed like he remembered a lot since then. I'm sorry. But I'll still be nice. Are you guys still friends?

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[hellofist]

He watched over me, while I slept. Kept me safe here. Letting me stay. What do... you think?

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[ichoosefight]

I think you're maybe a little closer than friends, but I'm glad you two are okay. People losing memories is one of the things that really scares me about this place. Of course it figures he'd still like you, I don't see how anyone could not.

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[hellofist]

Maybe. Still love him. Boyfriend never... felt right, anyway. He was more, still is. Just never... learned bigger word, for boyfriend. Was gonna ask Barbara.

[Can she just ignore the rest of that? It's making her blush and she has no idea how to respond to it.]

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[ichoosefight]

Maybe I can help. [ She loosens her hold enough to give Cass some room to breathe. She can't just leave Cass lost when it comes to romance. ] Bigger how?

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[hellofist]

[That shouldn't be so hard to answer, but it really is. Cass frowns while she tries to think of the right words, the best way to explain herself.]

Being with him... it makes everything okay. His smile makes me smile. He knows... what it feels like, having power that... no one else does. The burden, the danger inside you. Being different, with no way... to fix it.

Being scared... you'll lose everyone, if they find out. If they know... the things you can't help. Just feels right, being near him. Calling that... boyfriend doesn't seem right. Not enough.

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[ichoosefight]

[ Steph watches Cass' face as she talks, considering. A bigger word than boyfriend, huh? ]

Are you in love with him?

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[hellofist]

[Cass blinks, then frowns at Steph. She just said she was.]

Yes.

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[ichoosefight]

Like, really in love with him. Like how I feel about Kon?

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[hellofist]

Yes, really in love. Have been, since before... he kissed me.

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[ichoosefight]

Maybe the word you're looking for is soul-mates.

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[hellofist]

Soul-mates? [That's definitely a new word for Cass.] That's... bigger than boyfriend?

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[ichoosefight]

Yeah. It's a word to describe two people who have always been meant for each other, like two halves of the same whole. It doesn't have to be literal, either, but it's sort of like destiny.

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[hellofist]

[It seems unfair to decide that that's the right word without bringing it up to Merlin, without hearing what he thinks about it. She can't do that, though. She's told him already it's in his hands, she won't act first. Having that conversation with him might seem like she's pushing, so she'll just keep the word to herself.]

Maybe. Don't want anyone else, so... would have fit.

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[ichoosefight]

[ That doesn't seem to satisfy Cass, so she backs down. She doesn't know what else to offer, though. ]

There aren't really any other words a lot bigger than 'boyfriend' that don't involve a ring. Just saying you love him is pretty accurate.