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[hellofist]

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[Cass inhabiting the CTS isn't a new Barge occurrence, but it's not typical for her to go in looking upset and come out still... really looking upset. But here she is, sitting on the floor outside the CTS to catch her breath and wait for her legs to start working again because it's been a few hours now of nothing but punching and kicking and pushing herself so she wouldn't feel anything, but it's not really doing the job this time around.

So yeah, she's kind of brooding outside the CTS like any good Bat does after an upsetting day.]


[Private text to Dean]
Out.


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[She goes back into the CTS after her break, but it's still not enough. In the end she's just on her knees punching the floor until her hands are bleeding and that helps, finally. Only took her hours to get there. Finally she leaves the CTS and makes her way back home to wait for Merlin. He can fix her, her hands and her heart.

It's a bit surprising, though, that she runs into him in the hallway, him approaching the door from the other direction. Even after everything, she's able to smile when she sees him.]

Was just... gonna find you. Hi.

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[hellofist]

Hello, Oliver.

[The absence of his bow is something she notices, finding it odd that he'd be up here without it. But then again, his body language isn't really telling her that he had a particular destination, so maybe she's just lucky to see him.]

Been awhile. You okay?

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[ichoosefight]

What was different?

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[logistical]

[He's a little lost, actually. Less so with Kirk here, and with Mal, but he is still... uncertain of himself. The Barge is intriguing, but also incredibly dangerous. It appeals to his rebelliousness, a little. To stay even when logic dictates otherwise.]

I am looking for the Closed Training Simulator. Has it changed the scenarios it loads?

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[takeyouapart]

[He smiles gently and nods, going over to where there's a kettle and some jars of leaves waiting.]

...I just finished my shift at the Infirmary, so, I've got nothing to do for the rest of today.

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[hellofist]

[While he's busy with the tea, she goes to sit at the table, both feet up on the bench and her arms wrapped around them.]

Good. Need to, um... tell you something. [She realizes after she says it that that sounds a little menacing, so she hurries to add-] Nothing bad. It's about... my deal.

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[takeyouapart]

Oh?

[Maybe it's not bad, but Merlin doesn't know if it's anything good either if she's curling herself up like that. He leaves the tea to brew and goes to sit down next to her on the bench.]

What is it, Cass?

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[hellofist]

[The posture is all about having expected to be sitting on her own until the tea was finished and her lingering feelings over the confrontation with her father, not at all about the deal. If anything, thinking about her deal cheers her up. Once he's sitting by her, she reaches for his hand.]

When you told me... Arthur comes back, you'd be there? Started thinking... about Guinevere. Even before she came, saw... he needs her. Just like he needs you.

So... changed my deal. When he comes back... Gwen will too.

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[hellofist]

[If she does crash, she'll probably be more worried about the bike being damaged than herself, but that's just something she'll keep to herself. Jesse's body is already showing her so much concern, she doesn't want to make him worry about her safety too.]

Do you ever... do something you know, probably shouldn't? But ignore that, just... do it anyway?

[hellofist]

[She can almost believe it, when Barbara says it.]

Can't stop. I know- shouldn't talk, but...

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[hellofist]

[Cass nods because of course that's true. Maybe it's a flaw, but it's also something that tends to make people stronger in the long run. They can't stop feeling, so they learn to better cope with sadness or pain or other bad things that happen.

It's just a hard thing to remember when all you want to do is break someone's skull with your fist. But she won't. She can't, she's Batgirl.]

Would probably be easier... if we were all not organic. But, we're squishy, with feelings. Sucks.

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[hellofist]

[There's not really any point to lying, so Cass just shakes her head. The answer is probably obvious anyway.]

Not really. Not like this.

[Bludhaven and Gotham were close, but she was still so alone there. The barge is where her new family is and that makes it feel more like a home than anywhere in her own world ever did.]

Not everyone's that way. Lots of good people, here.

Spam wow that sure was supposed to say DIDN'T way to go brain

[hellofist]

[She takes a moment to consider that, really try to work it out. In the end, she isn't proud of the answer but this is Stephanie, she'll always get the truth.]

Too mad. Don't want to... hit fake enemy. Want real one.

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[hellofist]

Found it. It's better, since port. Less dangerous. Should be fine.

[He's a warden, she's pretty sure. People that have body language like his are generally either wardens or serial killers who really believe they're doing things for the good of the people they kill but she's not really getting a murderer vibe from him.]

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[takeyouapart]

[There's nothing but plain shock on his face for a moment.]

You've...

Cass, are you sure?

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[hellofist]

[Well, that's an incredibly silly question. His look of shock gets a frown in response.]

Yes. Was obvious choice. Loki will... take awhile, but it's okay. Dealing with him... is very worth this.

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[takeyouapart]

Of course. I'd do anything for Gwen, myself, but...there's nothing you want for yourself?

[Really, Merlin, there's a pot/kettle issue here.]

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[hellofist]

[She gives him a knowing look.]

When you're used to... having nothing, wanting things isn't first thought.

Besides, have everything I need, here.

Spam oh wow ok that makes much more sense

[ichoosefight]

I don't guess this would be one of those times where sparring would help at all. [ It's a nice thought, but if Cass wants to beat on somebody who deserves it the last thing Steph wants to do is get between her and the punching bag. ]

[bodilesswarrior]

But it's hard, because he's your father. [It's hard to say that, to admit it, but - that connection will always be there, no matter what he's done, how little he deserves it.]

I...it's not comparable, not really, but my first dad - I couldn't let him go, either.

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[myresponsibility]

[He didn't know Cain well at all, really, and he hasn't been checking the network that often lately, so he hasn't seen his post and doesn't know what had been going on. But that's still lousy, and he really can't imagine what that has to feel like.]

Sorry. That's gotta be hard.

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[theantiaya]

Many things would be easier. All of Creation, in fact.

[You're going to get nothing but agreements here, Cass.]

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[velocette]

Good people often don't appreciate what they've got. [He points this out simply, gently even. He doesn't have much malice for ignorance.]

I haven't been here that long, you know, but it seems like a microcosm of every aspect of the city I was from. Except I can't figure out yet where you'd have fit in.

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[logistical]

[He quirks a curious eyebrow.]

'Fine' has variable definitions. [His way of pointing out neither of them are quite 'fine'.] Furthermore, 'less dangerous' as compared to... the port?

what do you mean this is late spam? that's an illusion. it's completely on-time. udek.

[breathoflight]

[Snow herself does not frequent the CTS, but she walks the Barge fairly often. Stretching her legs is a good time to think. During such a walk is when she finds Cass sitting outside and looking quite down in the dumps. It's the first time she's seen Cass be anything less than chipper so of course she's going to stop.]

Cass... Are you alright?

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[yeahscience]

[Cass, do you even know who you're talking to right now? Jesse Pinkman, King of Bad Decisionmaking.] Um.

[He glances over at her, and his expression is sort of uncomfortably self-aware, his body language screaming... well, do you even know who you're talking to right now?]

...sometimes?