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[hellofist]

[Today, Cass is dressed like a normal person. She's sitting in the cafeteria with a mug of tea, perched in a chair with her knees drawn up to her chest and her oversized sweater pulled over them so she's just a blob of blue fabric with arms. Even the hood is up. With her chin on her knees and her eyes on the tea, she speaks to the comm quietly.]

Had all the words. Could make them, if I wanted. Could write. Talked normal. Was normal.

Couldn't see bodies talking. Didn't need. [Her fist comes up to rub at her temple.] Makes headaches, now.

Does that... happen a lot? Was confusing. Was not fun.

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[hellofist]

Wasn't even... his same name.

[That doesn't make it better. Shame makes Cass hide her face in her hands so she doesn't have to see Steph start hating her. It's bound to happen now.]

'm sorry.

[ichoosefight]

There's nothing to apologize for. He wasn't himself, you weren't yourself, I wasn't myself. [ She will just have to try not to picture it. Vividly. ]

[hellofist]

[Is it really that easy? Her fingers split, just a fraction, because she's still afraid of the truths that Stephanie's body will tell her.]

Really?

[ichoosefight]

[ She offers a weak smile. If anything, she hates that the barge even does this to them. She certainly doesn't blame Cass or Kon. ]

Really. You'd be amazed how often this stuff happens.

[hellofist]

[She might cry just from how relieved she is. She was so sure this would be the end of everything. That on top of the confusion of all these feelings being brought back up, just how broken she really is, was so much to have to cope with.]

Okay... Are you okay?

[ichoosefight]

I'm just fine. Who I turned into, she didn't get into much trouble.

[hellofist]

What'd she do?

[She's trying to follow Steph's example, say she instead of you or I. It's easier to think about it if she pretends it wasn't actually her doing all those things.]

[ichoosefight]

Party, mostly. She was kind of a ditz. [ Yes, good, now you're learning. ]

[hellofist]

[She does the best she can with what she's got.]

Ditz?

[ichoosefight]

All she cared about was boys and pretty dresses.

[hellofist]

.... Gross.

[There's so much better things in the world than boys and dresses. It's times like this Cass is glad Stephanie isn't actually that kind of girl.]

[ichoosefight]

I don't know if I'd call it gross. [ It's just a different way of living. One that Steph wants nothing to do with. ]

But yeah, I know what you mean.