Eleventh Unused Utility Belt | Video, Spam

[hellofist]

Um. I'm awake, now.

[Have a wave and half a smile, Barge.]

Didn't mean... to worry anyone. Sorry. I'm okay, though. I know... things have changed. Birthday passed. Was going to be... first one. Never knew it, growing up. Guess weapons... weren't allowed them. Merlin said, can have party. Don't know how, though. Could use tips.

Want to see everyone. Can meet somewhere, or you... come to Merlin's room. Staying here now, moved stuff already. It's... safer, this way. For my heart.

[That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context though, does it? She sighs and her smile fades, dissolves into a look that's somewhere between uncomfortable and just sad.]

There's a man here, David Cain. My father.

[She's truthful almost all of the time anyway, but this is when it becomes clear she's affected by this flood.]

Don't kill him. He's not... worth your time. Deserves a chance. Bad father, bad man, deserves to die, maybe should die, but... deserves his chance, too. Just leave him alone. Don't want people... getting hurt. Love you all too much.

That's... guess that's all.


Private to Bruce Wayne
Don't anymore, okay? Once is enough.

I love you.



Private to David Cain
Promise still stands. You kill anyone, I kill you.

... Hope this place... works, for you.



Spam for Dean and Barbara, separately
[Some people deserve to see her in person without waiting so she goes to them first, knocks and knocks and knocks on their doors until they open up, let her in. Once they do, they'll have an armful of Cass because there's no stopping her once she sees those faces again.]

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Video

[hellofist]

Lots of people... missed it. Didn't tell many. But, will accept presents.

Has flood been weird, for you? I like it. Think it's funny.

Private

[hellofist]

Yes. It hurts, seeing someone... love you, when all they ever did... was hurt you. Doesn't make sense. How can someone... leave scars, hurt you, not teach you, not let you... be normal baby, but still love you?

Safer, not seeing him. Not seeing his love, trying to... make it fit.

Video

[fuckingvisions]

Well then, now I gotta get that present sooner. Can't have you waiting without many birthday wishes, love.


You could say that. I wouldn't say so much funny as relaxing. [ It wont be relaxing when things return to normal. Someone's not gonna be able to look Steph in the eyes.]

Spam

[hellofist]

I'm okay, mostly. Lots of things... are hard, but some things good.

[She pulls back to get a good look at Barbara, touches her hair and her face and just smiles at her.]

Thought, if I ever... saw him, again? Would be horrible, couldn't do it. Scared, of what he... might do, to isolate me. But I feel safe, here. With you, and friends. And... Merlin. He wants to... protect my heart.

private; audio

[hellofist]

You aren't monster. I'm not, either. We're just people. You did... what you had to. Maybe it's not right, but your choice. Can't say, Joker didn't deserve it. He did. But now, stop. For all of us, stop. We love you, don't like... seeing you hurting, sad.

It's okay, loving us too. We want you to, if we suffer, it's less... when you love us. But don't try for me. Love me because you love me, not... because I need it. Means more, if you mean it.

[ichoosefight]

Cass! You're awake, that's awesome, I was really worried and I wasn't sure how you felt about your dad being here and I wanted to be there for you but then you were unconscious. I'll come find you, stay right there!

a food on

[hellofist]

[Yes, she says. Cass smiles, glad nothing has changed there, that she and Morgana are still friends. There's a lingering feeling of sisterhood left over from the breach, there's still memories of braiding hair and Morgana and Cassie against the world, so it just feels good to see her again.]

Yes, everyone's telling truth. It's... kind of fun. Bad, for some. Embarrassing. But, I see truth always. It's good, that others can... know truth, too.

Video

[hellofist]

It's okay, really. Friends is best present.

I always see truth, so... nothing new, for me. Bodies always say... what they feel, want.

[hellofist]

Waiting for you, then. Outside Merlin's door. Hurry, okay? Miss you.

private; audio

[theonlyresponse]

I am. I know one when I see it, and I see it in the mirror every day. I don't know if I can stop, or if I can change. Sometimes there's no choice, I just don't know when those times will be, but I can't risk a rising body count because of some false hope. I don't believe in hope any more. I want to, but I don't.

I don't mind that it kills me. I don't really care that it did until I met all of you. Nobody at home spent time around me, so I didn't realise I was hurting more than just myself. I want to stop because I don't want to hurt the people I love, but that's something I always do regardless of the situation. It's who I am.

I do love you. I thought you judged me for not being him when I first met you, but I realise now that you don't. You just wanted me to accept that you cared. I'm sorry it took me so long to work that out. I'm so sorry.

Re: Private

[onceandfutureprat]

So the solution is to move in with Merlin?

??

[youwillgotohell]

[She has been doing her damnedest to forget the breach; it hurt too much, to think of that world, and that girl, who'd had friends she could trust, and knowing the majority of those friends hadn't been trust worthy, or wanted her dead.]

It's been interesting, at least.

[Private]

[Okay, she can't hold off.] Your father...?

action!

[ichoosefight]

I'll just be a minute, I'm leaving the cafeteria right now.

[ And it's true! It takes just about one minute for Steph to get out of the cafeteria and right down the hall to Merlin's room, where she knocks. ]

Re: [video]

[routemistress]

[A very long speechless moment from Iris. No, she hasn't. Yes, she's been considering it. Also she tends to do the opposite of what people tell her to. Except this is Cass with her legitimate grievance. Which all translates to AWKWARD.]

Cass. D'you mind?

I daresay I can still backseat warden. I were more or less planning to any road.

Private - read your last tag. It made me laugh

[hellofist]

He's why... I can't read, talk funny. He made me weapon. Trained from birth, taught to... read body language, not words. Couldn't talk until seventeen. Wanted perfect... killing machine.

Private

[hellofist]

Cain won't come here. Not if... there's someone else. Can't get in, there's spells.

Think he won't, at least. Can't... avoid him forever, but can make it... in my terms.

private; audio

[hellofist]

I'll hope for you. Good at it.

Don't be sorry. You see now, can... make up for it. Lots of hugs. Told you, I'll always... forgive you. Always.

Private - OH lmfao well now I am laughing too

[youwillgotohell]

[Jesus, Cass. She does feel sympathy, plenty of it.]

And you think he deserves a chance?

action!

[hellofist]

[It only takes about half a second for Cass to yank the door open and launch herself right into Steph's arms. She squeezes her tightly because she missed her, it's possible to miss people even if you've been asleep.]

Good pacing. Really was a minute.

[video]

[hellofist]

Would be weird. Really weird.

[She doesn't even know if her father is capable of romantic relationships, she still wonders what kind of union it was that made her. She doubts love was involved at all. That might not be what Iris is interested in but she doesn't want Cain hurting anyone at all, in any way.]

Private - a food on would be the best kind of flood tho

[hellofist]

Think everyone does.

Private - Cloudy with a chance of meatballs flood. I need it immediately.

[youwillgotohell]

Maybe you're too forgiving.

Private - YES THAT WOULD BE PERFECT now I have to watch that

[hellofist]

Maybe. But I see things... others don't. See what's really inside. If someone... wants to be good, wants to change, should have chance.

Someone has to... show them hope.

Re: [video which Iris has switched to PRIVATE NOW]

[routemistress]

Aye, it really would. Cass love, I'm usually more or less honest anyway; I'm more honest with you, 'cause what'd be the point?

I've got an 'abit of fancyin' dangerous blokes, an' 'e's certainly that. 'Avin' you around's liable to be a bucket of cold water on anything like that. But I'm makin' no promises all the same. I'm not very good at rememberin' reasons I shouldn't do things when I'm 'it in the gut with the reasons I want to.

Besides, 'e might not be interested. 'E looked to me like a man without a lot of interest left in anything much.

Private - it was my favorite book as a kid, I want to read it again :C

[youwillgotohell]

[She literally can't with you Cass :c]

Did you see that in him?